Monday, 22 December 2014

My Mind...

My father one day suddenly asked me what goes on in my mind. I couldn't answer right away as many thoughts come and go. So I thought I'd sit down and record at least a regular day here.


  • Don't wanna get up...
  • Get up. It's not healthy
  • The timer on <insert game here> has gone off. Must Check!
  • Planning stuff to rp with my friend
  • Oh this Youtuber uploaded!
  • Planning stuff to rp with my friend
  • Cleaning up my memory palace
  • Planning stuff to rp with friend
  • Reminded self of projects you must finish
  • Chores...
  • Taming inner demons
  • Planning stuff to rp with friend
  • Planning death
  • Fanfiction!
  • Ok, must aleep or this is not healthy
*Looks at the above list*.... Looks ok. I rp alot....

Square Enix...

Hurry up and give The World Ends With You Solo Remix its bloody IOS support update already!!!

Sherlock BBC

Oh dear lord, started watching it and I am hooked. Someone save me X//D it is so good.

Movie Advertising

Gonna go see it Saturday. Sho. Bloody. Excited! You have no idea!!

I was very confused about the state of Big Hero 6 as I see reviews about it all over the place and figurines are being sold faster than chips fry and yet I see that it hasn't come out in our country yet.

Don't. Sell. Movie merchandise. Before. The movie. Is bloody released, you bloody teases!!! DX

Saturday, 12 July 2014

2048

Such. A good. Game.

Do you know how long it's been to play such a good non-internet game?

I believe the era of non-internet games as died. Everything seems to require it now.

For me specifically, it's all the visual novel dating sims. They all used to be paid.

Now it's bye bye that and hello slow, free, energy regenerating games. Yeugh.

Freaking Twitch

Downloading a new game? Piece of cake.

Watching a three hour video on youtube? Just fine~

Watching a recorded video on twitch? NOPE! LET'S LOAD 5 MINUTES PER TEN!

Why Twitch? You were made to stream and recorded very long videos. Repeating them shouldn't be that big of an issue. And I have unlimited internet and pretty good five-bar connection so don't pull any of that on me.

Friday, 11 July 2014

LONG LIVE THE QUEEN

I WANT IT SO BAD! SOMEONE STOP ME!!!

You know when you know something is useless in life and you know, responsibly, you should prioritise other stuff but you still yearn anyway?

Yeah. Me right now.

GIVE IT- NO WAIT, DON'T GIVE IT! BUT I WANT! BUT I DON'T NEED! GAAH!

I've been playing the demo over and over to sate my desire. Should I miraculously get the full game, I'd max internal affairs at the start to peacefully settle the Kevan issue (I'd pay the Ixionites. I don't think I'd be able to gain the skills for the investment events, not do I really care that much too. Plus I plan to purposefully lose the Shanjia war). Max voice and having high intrigue to hire that musician so expose Lucille when she sends us the chocolate, use the intrigue check with our dad for assassins so I can safely go to Gwenelle's party, solve the Briony run and get the coded letter, solve Togami's issues and marry Kevan. It's all in my head. It's good.....

It will never happen.

...Uh...

... Hai?

I'm not dead?

... OUO'' I'm sorry?

Friday, 31 January 2014

Every time...

Staff of my university. Please stop losing my crap. Because that is very important crap. Crap that is meant to help me succeed in life. What do you think will happen if you list my enrolment form and we weren't informed until too late? What do you think will happen when I failed a subject because you lost my homework?

Don't let it happen again.

My childhood....

Near my school, there is this horse statue that has been there as long as I remember. It was usually always white.

When I visited my school again, I found some people have painted it red and gold to celebrate the New Year.

It is not the same horse anymore. It is dead to me.

Sunday, 19 January 2014

Marionette

To fall free, we must cut the strings

And if that doesn't work, then tear off the limbs

The fingers and toes

The hands and feet

The arms and legs

And the heart that beats

Fall, fly, be free.

Monday, 13 January 2014

That One Extra Letter

When you tell someone you love them, I find it is much more impactful if you add the 'I'. You can casually say 'Love you' to anyone, but it is easy to not take it seriously. It seems aimless. But, them you add the 'I', and you take responsibility. It comes directly from you and you can't take it back. And that's ok, because you want them to notice it is to them from you.

When I tell someone that I love them, in any sort of implication, I often have trouble saying those three words, often opting for the two. It takes a lot out of me to add the 'I' on the front. It gets stuck in my throat and left behind. To me, it takes a great deal of trust and/or care for me to push that one extra syllable out.

Most people don't notice it, this effort. It's just a standard sign of affection. To me it isn't. To me, it is the same as making a promise. I am giving you my word, and my trust and affection. And for an immovable emotionless person like me, that is a big thing to give.

This is just a personal thing I thought about during RPs. Wondering if anyone else is like this too.

Wednesday, 8 January 2014

One of the awesome lines I thought of during my life

No matter how much you hate me, I will protect you from everything. And if you try to kill yourself because you don't like that, I will protect you from that too.

Thursday, 2 January 2014

The Bucket List

Gonna make a list of things to go before I go. It'll be short for now until I think of other plans to add to it. I didn't think I'd live past highschool and didn't think I'd get this far in life. So here it goes.

Beat minesweeper on difficulty hard- Done.

Make a lot of origami tetris pieces, cover a door with them and watch as a person comes through and walks into them- Pending

Laugh maniacally in a large shopping centre- Pending

Write a novel- Pending

Sew a large sheet of pressed rose petals to wrap myself and get buried in when I die- Pending

Cosplay once in my life- Pending

Roll down a hill, all the way to the bottom- Pending

Place to die: in a rose garden or by the ocean- Up for discussion

If I miraculously have a loved one, to kiss them in public (it's a big thing for me)- Pending

The New Year

2014 is here.

Let us look back on 2013

What have have done wrong.

What the world has done wrong.

Why we did them.

Then put it behind us and start anew, hopefully better than before.

To 2014, may this year be better.

May the cynicism begin.

Tried green tea today...

It tasted like grass flavoured water...

Why~~~~?

The thing about scones I realised

They are REALLY filling... Since they are mostly flour, have a low water content and~ you eat them with jam and cream, two can make you quite full.

Don't underestimate the scone.

My stomach~~~>.<